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Warrior by Demi Lovato, covered by Kaitlyn Marie Mercy :] 

When I first heard this song, I cried, sobbed, and bawled my eyes out. 
The impact it has made on me, the things it has ingrained into my mind. 
Being a human trafficking survivor, I was abused, raped, and used by many, many excuses for human beings, primarily men. In this song, it talks about armor, about strength, about not ever being hurt by my abuser again. At least, that’s what I got out of it. 

“There’s a part of my I can’t get back, a little girl grew up too fast. All it took was once and now i’ll never be the same.”

acknowledging that something happened, that I was emotionally traumatized by what happened to me, that I will never be the same as I was before all of this happened, for me has been very, very important.

“Taking back my life today, there’s nothing left you could say. You were never going to take the blame anyway.” 

Today, I am taking back my life, I am achieving things I never thought I would be able too, because I thought I would be dead. I’m graduating high school at 16! I’m releasing an album next year! I started an awareness organization! I’m getting a job! I have friends! I’m closer with my family than I ever have been before! I’m making a difference. I’m taking back my life and now allowing it to be controlled by the people who hurt me so badly.

Yes, I still have panic attacks and probably will for a long time. 
Yes, I still have self harm urges.
Yes, I still have disordered eating thoughts and habits.
Yes, I still break down and cry.
Yes, I still have nightmares.

But yes, I am getting better.

“You can NEVER hurt me again” 

I am safe. I am in control of my life and I am safe.