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iwilldestroymyself:

This post.

During the day when you’re with people, laughing, smiling, having all these distractions. You kind of force your mind to attempt to shut off those thoughts, and maybe for a brief time its a nice numb feeling away from the pain. Sure you can be happy, but that doesn’t mean you -are- happy.

Then when you go home, lay in your bed, there’s no distractions and the thoughts just flood in. Then it happens all over again.